Three month. Wow. It’s so crazy how fast everything goes by and probably I am already annoying you because that’s what I say every time. But it’s true!
Anyways, this month was really good. The best so far. But lets stop with the spoilers!
By the way, I decided to add a new category at the end: What I am excited for. I just wanted to write down things I can look forward and which make me happy, excited and feel positive.
Without further ado, let’s jump into the update! Have fun!
f e e l i n g s
Finally, my friends! Finally, I can tell you that I was feeling so good this month. I experienced some cool things and I don’t know… I just felt
I realized for the first time that my time here is limited and that I will go home after ten month. My chance is NOW to experience things. I have now the chance to go to Canadian hockey games or to Chapters, Starbucks etc.
And I am thankful for it. I really am and I hope that this feeling will be with me for a long time.
e x p e r i e n c e s
At the beginning of October, a few other Au-Pairs and me went to Vancouver. I’ve been there before at the beginning of my stay but I was still excited for the trip.
BUT I have to confess that I do not really like Vancouver, well maybe more Downtown Vancouver. And I can’t tell you why. I just don’t feel comfortable while being there. I totally fell in love with the town and its size I am living in and maybe Vancouver is just too big, too busy. I am still hopeful that my opinion about the city will change over the time because of course I haven’t nearly seen all sides of it.
Maybe you understand what I mean.
As I’ve told you in my last post, my two girls had their birthdays, which was, of course, super exciting.
Their party theme was Halloween. For this reason I made them a scary pumpkin piñata and I am so proud and happy how it turned out, to be honest. They had a lot of fun putting the candies inside and getting them out, of course.
Success, I would say!
My heart is still so happy. Oh boy, all the feeeeeeeels
As you might know, my all-time favorite book is The Survival Kit. I read it for the first time when I was 14, I think and I am still in love with the story. The main male character is Will. He is hockey player and amazing. Just telling.
What I loved about the book is that hockey isn’t just mentioned like a side fact but you really learn something about the sport because the main character Rose is learning about it. I feel like I am really bad at explaining but I hope you know what I mean.
I got those hockey vibes and I always wanted to experience it by myself. Being in a hockey stadium, seeing the players skating, listening to the national anthem, experiencing the special atmosphere.
I love being in soccer stadiums and I missed the atmosphere. The hockey game gave me a little bit of home back.
Like I said before: all the feels
When the game started I got goosebumps and I felt so alive. I realized (for the first time) that my time here is limited. That I have the opportunity to watch those games now and that it will be over at one point in the future. I don’t know but it changed my thinking in a way. I think less of going home or being sad about what is over and more about what is happening right now. Here.
I feel a lot much better.
I wish I could catch this feeling, put it in a jar and open it every time I am sad.
I was so so so excited for Halloween! I always wondered how it is to go trick and treating. How it is to give hundreds of kids candies. I am so happy I could experience it because it was a very nice day. And a very nice evening.
As you might see, I dressed up as a wanna-be Shadowhunter. It was really last minute but I am glad I did it and have something to look back to.
k i d s
My girls have been pretty amazing this month. They were sweet and good listeners (well, most of the time :P) and our relationship grows stronger every day, I feel like.
We did lots of crafts which is my favorite thing to do, to be honest. We made birthday cards, a Halloween garland, our own Play-Dough etc. and I think sometimes I am more excited about the DIY’s than my kids 🙂
h o s t f a mi l y
The past few weeks were really good.
I had great conversations with my host mom, which made and still makes me feel happy. We talked about movies, books, personal things and it felt good.
I felt very comfortable and it’s difficult to express the feeling. But, do you know the feeling after having a really good conversation? I felt that almost every evening which made me happy. I felt security and it was nice for me to talk about my family because, I think, that was what I really needed.
m o n e y
In my opinion, I did really good this month. Of course, the Vancouver trip was quite expensive but after that, I did really good I would say. I didn’t get a lot of Starbucks coffee, no clothes or ice cream (which is so expensive!).
I really hope I can, more or less, keep that up…but, oh well, Christmas is coming…
l a n g u a g e
It’s really hard for me to tell you if I improved my English skills or not, simply because I don’t know. I think it’s hard to see and notice your own progress.
The other day I asked my host mom if I have a strong accent and she said yes, which is just a fact and normal but still makes me a little sad. So, I will try to work on that.
Sometimes I notice that I still have a hard time expressing myself and I really really want to work on this. Learn new vocabulary and be more confident.
If you have any tips for getting less of an accent or getting simply better and confident in speaking, then please, please tell me!
r e a d i n g s i t u a t i o n
I have been so so bad. I couldn’t finish a single book, doesn’t matter how often and how hard I tried. I then decided to go to the bookstore and buy two of my favorites and hope they will get me back to reading.
Somehow I’ve also been kind of disconnected to bookstagram, which makes me really sad. I felt and still feel like I am putting too less effort into it, especially when I see all the sweet comments and messages I always get from you. Probably I am just putting too much pressure on myself and I hope everything will work out soon again but at the moment I am just frustrated because it’s my passion and I love what I am doing.
It’s just that I am so busy but I feel like I am not. I have so many things on my mind and I plan on doing so much stuff but it’s different to the occupations I experienced when I still went to school. I was busy because of learning, preparing for next lessons, writing essays, doing homework and I think I am experiencing a new kind of busy-ness. I have to accept that I can be occupied without school and I should be happy about having so much free time once in my life. I just feel guilty when I am telling someone I am busy and have so many things to do, when the other one is working or attending school or whatever.
So confusing. I know. I have no idea if that makes any sense. Probably not but I hope so.
w h a t i a m e x c i t e d f o r
December comes up in three weeks and I am really excited. My birthday is exactly one month away, actually less because it’s after midnight (11th of December), and I am just looking forward to experience it here with new people and I hope that it will be good.
I am excited for going on present hunts, making lots of cute Christmas crafts with my girls and trying to stay as happy, motivated and organized as I am right now.
Cross your fingers for me!
Smile for me today even if you aren’t having a good day. Just smile and take a deep breath. You can do it and I believe in you!
Okay, that’s it from my side, I think 🙂