Hold your tissues ready because this might become a very emotional blog post. My last Au-Pair update from being an Au-Pair in Canada.
Is that believable? I really really can’t get it in my head that I am here for just a few more days (few more days compared to all the months I was here!) My dream of being an Au-Pair is almost over and that is unbelievable.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone who supported my journey. For all your amazing, encouraging words when I had a rough time and for the love you send me all the time.
That means so much to me and I don’t know where I would be right now without you.
But now let’s jump into my last Au-Pair Update.
f e e l i n g s
I’ve been doing great. I’ve been feeling so alive and happy and this month I noticed so often how I changed as a person, or better, how much I’ve grown as a person. That makes me really proud and takes a little bit of the fear away from going back home. As you might know I was and still am scared that I will make steps back when I am in my normal environment but I think the changes I made are so monumental that I can keep climbing the ladder and that makes me really really hopeful.
Of course, I’ve had some sad moments too during this last full month. Just the thought of saying goodbye to my host family hurts and I don’t want to imagine how my last day will be like but it’s always better to leave when everything is good and you are happy. And it’s something which I knew from the beginning has to happen.
e x p e r i e n c e s
I did a lot things which were still on my to-do list. I went to my favorite Butchart Gardes a couple of times to admire their beautiful peonies and roses.
I had to say goodbye to my best friend from here which was hard but the thought of seeing her soon again in Germany makes it easier and it is so fun to hear how she is doing back home.
For the long Victoria Day Weekend we went camping down at the beach which was so so beautiful. We already went there at the beginning of my stay and so it was a great way to see that place again and say goodbye 🙂
I spent some time by myself, went to different bookstores, bought some new summer clothes and just enjoyed the relaxed feeling it gave me. Our local museum also has an Egypt exhibition at the moment, so one morning I went there and it was so interesting.
Then, I already sent home some of my stuff because all of it would have never fit in my suitcase…I don’t know if you saw it on my Instagram Story but I had to spend A LOT of money to ship the parcel to Germany. My bank account is still crying…
I spent lots of time with my host family and enjoyed every moment with them. I finished their Goodbye presents and I can’t wait to give them to them and see their reactions. Pray for me that they’ll like them.
k i d s
My kids have been great and I realized that we’ve become such a strong team. We almost don’t get in any fights anymore and if yes, then I am way more relax than at the beginning.
Before I go, I want to take them for ice cream and we already had a movie night in my room. I really can’t imagine to have to leave them soon. They have grown so much in those 10 months and our relationship is so special. They don’t really understand and realize yet that I am not going to come back for quite some time when I leave and that makes me happy and sad at the same time…
I will for sure tell you how everything went!
h o s t f a m i l y
I’ve appreciated my host family even more this month. They are so lovely, caring and funny and I feel once again so honored that they have chosen me to be their Au-Pair.
I am a little bit scared though of the saying goodbye. I can get really emotional but I don’t know how my host parents will behave or react. I already know how much I will miss them and sometimes I wonder if the fact that I am going is such a big deal for them too.
I know, it is overthinking but I am just wondering. I guess, I will find out sooner or later 🙂
m o n e y
Well, well, well…that parcel left my bank account bleeding and I had to spend some money on presents as well.
At the beginning of the month I thought I am going to save all the money, so I have some cash for at home. In the middle though I started to think, how silly I am and started to spend it in the stores I love and the ones which we don’t have at home and to be honest, I am happy I did. I bought some great stuff and I can’t wait to be at home and be remembered off all the great memories.
l a n g u a g e
My final resume is that my expectation to speak perfectly English stays an expectation. I still sometimes make grammar and vocabulary mistakes but the thing I improved is my fluency and confidence in speaking. I have no problem to talk to a stranger in English, order food etc. because you simply have no other choice while you live here. I can have fluent small talks and conversations with other people and I don’t feel embarrassed when I make a mistake.
That is an big improvement, I would say and I am really happy about it. Now I hope that I can keep up this English and don’t forget everything again.
r e a d i n g s i t u a t i o n
My reading situation has been really good. I almost finished all the books I bought here and uploaded reviews to all of them. I bought myself another one for the flight home and I can’t wait to start reading it.
I really think that summer makes it easier for me to read 🙂
w h a t i a m e x c i t e d f o r
I am excited for home. I am excited to see my family and friends again, redecorate my room, sleep in my own bed, having some time off before university starts and just looking back at this great, great adventure.
I am so so grateful for everyone who made all this possible and I cannot wait to come back one day.
i m p r o v e m e n t – i m p r o v a b l e
- I haven’t been good with my routine lately and I ate loooots of junk food and worked out too less. Not that it bothers me a lot but I just feel better when I look after myself like this. So, I definitely have to change that when I am back home.
- Everything. I improved so much over the last 10 months and I feel very happy about it and can’t wait to show everyone at home 🙂
It’s a wrap! 1243 words later and I’ve summed up my 10th and final month as an Au-Pair in Canada.
I cannot believe that it is over. That I lived my dream of being an Au-Pair and that I will soon start a new chapter in my life and close this old one.
As I said at the beginning, I wanted to say thank you to every single one of you, who read my updates, who left me a comment and/or like and just the fact that you click on my website means so so so much to me.
Thank you. Thank you so much.
Here is the link to the list with all my Au-Pair Updates, if you are interested.
I still have some Au-Pair posts planned and might do an update, 1 month after I am back home. We’ll see.
For the meantime I wish you all a great day or night and see you in my next post!