It’s crazy how fast things can change. How close happiness and sadness are. August was exciting; September, however, the most challenging month of the year so far. I talked a little bit about it on my Instagram story, but I didn’t feel well. Besides not feeling good, I had to finish my term paper and got back to work, which was a lot at some points. I got so frustrated with myself for not focusing or being disciplined.
A month full of sadness, frustration, and anger.
A month where I doubted myself and the person I am. Am I enough, and am I good the way I am? I doubted it. What if I wouldn’t feel so deeply? What if I’d be a little bit more disciplined?
A month of love and friendship.
Even though September was hard, it was also very eye-opening. I always knew I had friends and a family that loved me, but I was never really aware of it, if that makes sense. It’s so hard to explain, but I feel their love just hit me. It hit me that these people like me for the person I am. I felt so much gratitude towards my friends this month. They showed me so much love by just calling and checking in or by listening. Sometimes something hurtful has to happen to realize how loved you were all along.
I am excited about a new month. I am excited about new opportunities, about four more weeks before Uni starts again. I want to make the best out of it, and I hope you want to do the same. We can be so lucky to be here right now. So lucky to have all this life ahead of us. So lucky to feel deeply, so lucky to be loved.
I am sending you the biggest hug. You are not alone with whatever you are feeling at the moment. I am right there with you. Thank you for listening to my thoughts but now let’s get to my September favorites 🙂
First of all, I’ve been obsessed with Audible. I’ve tried various audiobook platforms in the past but Audible has been my favorite so far.
Why We Sleep by Matthew Walker
I know, I know, I talked about this book before but of course, I had to include it in my Favorites posts. It was so good and I still recommend everyone reading it. So, go!
21 Lessons for the 21st Century by Yuval Noah Harari
I started reading this book a little while ago but wasn’t able to get into it. When I started working, I decided to get the audiobook to listen to it while working and let me tell you: best decision ever. I honestly don’t know what I expected, but it’s so much better than I thought. Harari talks about topics I never thought about. He gives us a glimpse into the future and explains what everything happening in the world right now mean to us as human beings. My mind is blown most of the time, no kidding. You need to read this book.
Music / Podcasts
Ever since I got Spotify (which was in 2014!!) I created a playlist for every season, so I’ve been loving listening to my old fall playlists. The one from last year brings back all the Canada feels. Love it.
This month I loved listening to Taylor Swift’s new album (again) and other random favorites were ‘When We Were Young‘ by Adele, ‘Without You‘ by Badfinger and the ‘This Is Us‘ album. Love it.
For podcasts, I am still so obsessed with ‘Mordlust‘, a german true-crime podcast (SO GOOD!) and I discovered ‘In Your Feelings‘ by Thought Catalogue. So beautiful. I’ve also been loving ‘But, What’s Next?‘ by Michelle Reed and ‘What We Said‘. Highly recommend all of them.
You can probably already guess what my most worn piece this month was. Yes, my beige Wide Leg Ribbed Pants. I’ve been living in them and no regrets. They are so comfy and look so good.
Also, I have been loving this oversized black sweater from my sister. It’s so comfortable and looks also great with the beige pants haha.
Oh, and this coat. It’s my mom’s coat and she was so kind and let me wear it. I am obsessed.
I ran a total of 41,59 km this month which is good but could definitely be better. I prioritized work and my term paper but I will change this next month. Like I mentioned before I want to be able to run the distance of a half marathon by the end of the year, so I definitely need to work on that.
This picture was taking at work and I feel like I look pretty happy even though it was so so cold that day haha.
Like I’ve mentioned before, happiness and sadness were close this month. I laughed about something, only to find myself crying a few minutes later. And that’s okay. It’s okay to feel things.
My happy September moments:
- Eating pizza on a hill, listening to ABBA.
- After eating one handing of tiramisu, ordering a second one because YUM.
- Getting my hair done. Finally.
- Evening walks with pretty skies.
- Unexpected phone calls.
- Caring friends.
Three Things for October:
- I am going to take a lot of time for myself, my friends and family.
- Run, run, run
- Getting back into a good morning routine. I need it.